In My World

While surfing on the net, looking for some nice quotes, I came across one which touched me by its simplicity in expressing something I have been wanting to put into words for a while now.

“It’s so easy, To think about Love, To Talk about Love, To wish for Love, But it’s not always easy, To recognize Love, Even when we hold it…. In our hands.” –Jaka

There are always big talks about love. I am referring to the romantic kind of love here. The other person who is supposed to make you feel great and happy. The other meaningful soul, the one with whom you feel whole. Some people have experienced the *real* thing. Others say they are still waiting for the *right* one to come along. Also, there are others who say they *don’t believe* in that forever kind of love. Yet, others will say love break hearts, causes tears and isn’t worth it. All in all, we all really think about love and talk about love and sometimes even yearn for it.

All that of course is easy. One can sit down and imagine how the *perfect* love is, right? I do it myself loads of time. Others can blab for hours about their different experiences. And we all want to be loved. Anyone who denies that is a *fool*. But as the quote carries on, it is not always easy to recognise love. How does that happen? Why can’t we see it? It says in the quote, “even when we hold it in our hands”… Isn’t that totally crazy? Why can’t we recognise the one person who is supposed to love us truly? The *One*?

We all know how many love stories end so bitterly. Why? This is where I think this quote is totally true. We can’t recognise the real thing. We fancy ourselves in love,and we go overboard and are so happy… but when that phase is over, what remains? bitterness? anger? *nothing?*

In my personal opinion, true love is what remains after that surging fire you feel at first dies away…What remains after that utter happiness we think no one can destroy…love is what remains after the first intoxications, addictions. Many couples break up because they lose that *special* feeling, right?

There is a big difference, I think, between being *in love* and to simply *love*. Being in love fades away after some time. Loving someone stays forever. That is why quotes like the one I have mentioned here exist. Those people who have said it must have seen it or experienced it. It wasn’t said just to be famous, hmm?

So, if after the sweet madness of being in love is over and you find out, there is nothing left except frustration, anger and bitterness, tell yourself it was not the real thing. Love is not supposed to be like that. You simply had a terrible attraction and now it is over.

Love is finding out, after that sweet madness I mentioned, that you are so into each other that you cannot imagine your life without one another. You see in the other person a part of your true self. You simply *complete* each other. It is about everything *after*.

Those who have found that know real happiness I suppose. Some people keep looking for it and still fail to recognise it. There are also those who don’t look for it, but who recognised it and do not do anything about it…they simply let it go…complex hmm? because they are scared about the *intensity*? of the *dependence?* of the *disbelief*? I for one can hardly know!

Bottom line I say love is a beautiful thing…another quote goes by saying: “Love is the beauty of the soul.” It is *truly*.

“It is a damn cold night, trying to figure out this life…” Avril Lavigne - I’m with you

The night was cold indeed and I was kind of taking a trip down memory lane. It is becoming one of my favorite places. I guess when you have nothing to do and when you cannot find sleep, your mind has a way of falling back to the past or fast forwarding into the future. Well, it happens like that for me. The past it is this time and I am trying to figure out this life. Basically, going through what I have achieved in the past, thing I can say I am proud of…and also others that I am not very proud of. One thing I can say though is that everything happens for a reason and based on the choices I have made at different stages of my life. My *DeStInY*

Ok, some people do not believe in Destiny, that life is preordained. Destiny was, is and always be a topic full of enigmas. Who really understands it properly? Different religions have different say on the matter. Many wise people have studied it but they each have their own explanation.

For me, our destiny is shaped by our *choices*. In life, we always have alternatives: We can “yes” and we can say “No”. We know when something is “good” and when something is “bad”. Life is preordained yes, but Man have what we call the *free will*, or the *power to choose*. When we are just children, our parents always took decisions for us and chose in our place. This is because they know what’s good for us then. But gradually, We are also taught what is right and what is wrong. That is the way it has to be. Come adolescence, we are allowed to take some decisions on our own because it is believed that we can distinguish between what is good and what is bad for us. Above Eighteen, we become accountable for our actions. At that age, we are mature enough to act in the correct way. To lead our life like responsible individuals. That is the “normal” way things should be. In a perfect world. But this world is not perfect and not everyone gets to lead a “normal” life. But let us come to our choices. Everyday we are faced with those. And every choice we make has a consequence. The consequence can be something that happens to us, something we obtain, something we feel, and the like. And those consequences can affect other people’s life. What do you choose? Sometimes it is complex. You may ask others for advice but in the end, the final decision is yours to make. From there, you have other choices to make and so on. So, for me life is full of choices and alternatives. More often than not, the choices are not obvious and they may not be apparent but with time, you will always find it.

Also, it can happen when you don’t have any choice but to do one specific thing, right? But that too is a result of a previous choice. I hence call a situation of no choice a consequence. Moreover, very often, we choose without really realising it. Here, maybe our personality plays a role. We choose based on what we like best for example. But it all comes down to choices. There is an outcome for everything and those outcomes, well, they are controlled by a *Greater Power*. I have no other way of explaining that. For instance, why something is the consequence of a certain action? That is what is preordained. The law of nature…

Hey there bloggers!

It has been a while since I’ve last blogged! Hmm, months in fact! Time does fly by quickly…

On my last post I mentioned how hectic the days were back then. Well, it is all over now. I have completed my final year project and what a stress has that been. Ooof! and not to mention the exams! Guess it is because it is my final year and everything and the tension and worry is kind of more fierce! Anyway, all *that* stress is gone now and another has taken its place. Stress because of results! But duh duh, I am not going to think about that just now!

A little update about me: I’ve turned 22 on the 27th of may. (Yeps Grown up now!) and I am working! (and have to act like a grown up too!) I am a “ingenieur d’etudes” (I have no idea how to say that appropriately in English. :S ) at Astek Mauritius. So basically I am still on the learning process. Understanding what the system is about and how to manage it. I’ve been working for three weeks already and let me tell you, it does not feel like it. But I am enjoying my time there. Ok, not all the time, but hey, for me it is much better than staying at home and doing absolutely nothing, or watch TV, or to go Shopping whenever I feel like it, to sleep till late.. Gosh, do I seem like a big liar here? Duh, I do! Nuh, Seriously, working is great but I do miss the real “holidays”! However, I guess we have reached that point in life where we are not granted “real holidays” anymore. It is time to be a responsible and independent individual. It is time for pay back. All through 18 years, we have been given almost everything ~free~: education, food, cloth, transport and the like. Now, we have to take it upon us to contribute so that others after us enjoy the same “free” stuffs we did. It is time also, for us to take care of our parents. To help them in their old days and to be grateful. Ha! I got a bit side-tracked I think! I was saying we ain’t given “real holidays” anymore, but hey! the week-ends are still here! So for me, Saturday is basically Shopping Day! (I so love that word: shopping shoppi-nnng shooooppp–inng!) I am out nearly all day. Sunday is sleeping till late day and tidying room day. Normally, I am not a big fan of Sundays. :S So ppfftt…

Anyway, feels good to have written down something after such a long time..I kind of forgot how much I enjoy it.

Today, Urv gave me, Gul and Ash a key holder in the shape of a heart! She made one for herself too. Our names written in one heart! So cute! It is a small thing, I know, but it really touches the soul so! It has certainly touched mine! Those girls have come into my life and changed it all the way through. This post is my way of telling them that I will always love them so much and that I’ll be there for them. Their presence in my life, their support, their love, their everything is very important to me! I cannot imagine how it would have been if I never met them. It all seems meant to be…

We have our ups and downs! what to do, ay? life itself is a rollercoaster but I am happy that we are riding it together and I know in my heart that there is one long ride ahead!

We are in fact four hearts beating differently but in perfect harmony! Break one heart and you might just find your face broken!

Love you all always! muaaaaaaah!

Gosh, time does go by so fast! I have not blogged for nearly three weeks but it seems longer than that. A lot has been going on and I have been busy. Ramadhan had started and of course, this has taken me out of my usual routine. There have been other stuffs to concentrate on! In addition to all that, studies are getting tougher everyday. My final year project is still on the background study level and my partner and I are supposed to be starting the analysis part soon. I am completely behind in my “multimedia systems” module. In fact, most of the time, I do not understand anything that the lecturer is talking about! and people, that is bad!!! If I do not get serious quick, there is going to be hell to pay! As from tomorrow, I am really going to concentrate. I’ll keep you updated on my progress! For the other modules, it seems I am doing fine! Specially for my IS Advanced class. There are some 127 students in that class and I find it fun! and well interesting too!

And ah yes, my resolutions. Some have worked out fine. I have been late for class only once and that was not my fault! It was for Urvy’s birthday! I had some things to do. I was late only ten minutes anyway. I have been eating more healthily and as for sports, I’ll start seriously after Ramadhan! We had a blast for Urv’s birthday! So happy moments have been spent with friends!

And where friends are concerned, made two and nearly lost one! The story will kind of get personal here and so I can’t really talk about it without their permission! In life we meet some people, some will stay forever, some will stay only for a moment and there are some who make you wish you have never met them! haha!

I got to go now…Keep dropping by! I will try to be more regular!!! Take Care!

Yet another week is over. I wanted to give some feedback on those resolutions I took some three weeks ago. I have not arrived late at any of my lectures. I paid more attention and gave some good answers to questions asked. I specially like my Network Design and Services lecture. I ate more healthily too. I brought my own food everyday and only on Saturday that I went to MIE for its fried noodles. Ash and I played badminton for one hour and my arm was painful for three days! I have not yet started on strengthening my programming skill but I am going to start soon. I am quite taken with my background study for my final year project right now. Every day I am thankful for my friends and we are enjoying all our time together. I have not hated anyone at all. At least no one new! And I still have not learned to be patient. Anyone has some tips?

“Give blood, Save a life.” or so the slogan goes right?

I have never given blood in my life before. Yesterday, however, I decided to change that. The blood caravan was on campus and I thought it was an opportunity to do a good action. So, all three of us, Ash, Gul and I, went to fill the form etc. No need to say I was terrified! and it showed!!! However, little courageous me decided not to go back! I really made up my mind! Our turn came and we gave our blood. I really will not go into details about how they took my blood. I feel like crying when I think about it now. It was not all that bad but see, I fainted some two hours after these vampires have taken 450ml of blood from me!!! :(  Apparently, I was not eligible to be a blood donor, I found out later!

Yes people, you have got to be “eligible” before giving your blood!

” To give blood for transfusion to another person, you must be healthy, be at least 17 years old or 16 years old if allowed by state law, weigh at least 110 pounds (that is about 50kg, and the criteria I do not meet by the way) , and not have donated blood in the last 8 weeks (56 days) or a donation of double red cells in the last 16 weeks (111 days). “Healthy” means that you feel well and can perform normal activities. If you have a chronic condition such as diabetes or high blood pressure, “healthy” also means that you are being treated and the condition is under control.

Other aspects of each potential donor’s health history are discussed as part of the donation process before any blood is collected. Each donor receives a brief examination during which temperature, pulse, blood pressure and blood count (hemoglobin or hematocrit) are measured. (They neither took my temperature nor did they do a blood count! ) “

To have more information, visit the American Red Cross website: http://www.redcross.org/services/biomed/0,1082,0_557_,00.html

Day 1 Semester 1 Year 3 started beautifully for me. I woke up early and I was on time in class. There was not much traffic in the morning and I am extremely grateful for that. It felt good to be in class again, with everyone and then some. The final race has begun!

There was no strike on campus, as I mentioned the last time. Things are starting to look up after quite a pertinent debate between the University’s administration and the students, and later on, with the Ministry of Education. The main issues have been solved! It seems that everyone is satisfied. But I guess, students are going to have to adjust with the fact that there will be more than 40 students in a class. Personally I was in a class of nearly 60 students this morning. I was at first apprehensive but it did not turn out all that bad. However, I had a friend who is doing a degree in International Relations and History who could not follow her class well in a room of 120 students. I do not know how things are going to evolve for these lectures but it is currently being said that RGBs and Laptops are going to be provided. Where they will get the money for that, I yet again, do not know. Let me remind you that the University is in some financial crisis. So…

Anyhow, the sun was shining brightly at Reduit today and I had a terrific day.

It feels good to get back to the old routine again!

Finally, after one additional week of forced holidays ;), many UoM students are getting ready to tackle yet another semester. Things promise to be tough and will need some getting used to. Simply because things are changing. For the better or for the worse, that remains to be seen. Personally, I’d prefer to stay optimistic. Apparently there is a strike planned tomorrow. *Sigh*

I have class at 8:30 AM. It is going to be a pain to wake up early. But, I have just written down some resolutions for this new and I hope, last academic year. 

• To always be on time in class.
• To pay more attention in class.
• To prepare my lecture notes the night before.
• To eat healthily.
• To practice more sports.
• To strengthen my programming knowledge.
• To enjoy each and every moment with my friends.
• To try not to hate anyone.
  
• To learn to be patient.

 Well, that is about it. I hope I stick to each of them! The most difficult one will be to be on time! Closely followed by the patience thing! I am going to try my best and God will do the rest!

I have everything ready for tomorrow. I am pretty excited to get back.

I hope I can get enough time to blog. Right now, I am listening to the radio: cool fm channel. They always air the nice slows on Sunday night. *Sigh*

I better turn in early tonight. Goodnight Peeps!!!

 ~~To  all my friends who are resuming uni tomorrow,

Have a great start guys and girls,

Bon Courage,

And Good Luck!~~ 

I have been having some hectic days lately and felt sometimes too lazy or too tired to blog! Well I am back tonight after spending the most beautiful day of all my holidays today. Simply awesome! Me and my girls, we rock! Love them to pieces! muaaaah ladies…Sun, Sea, Sand!

Just a few days remain before uni resumes. The hard days still lie ahead. But I am sure we will do all right!

I am off to bed now. Tired but extremely happy!