A while back, I wrote about how now I have to make up new pictures of where I’ll be in some five years. [Damn, because of the current flu pandemic, I don’t know if I have five years 😛 ]. Anyway, lately I’ve been wondering whether I’ll be more of a traditional mother or a modern mum.
Traditional Mother: the one who stays at home to look after the baby, cooks delicious meals everyday and does everything else.
Modern mum: the one who works, the one who doesn’t really have time to cook lavish meals everyday, the one who, in short, does not have much time. 😛
I know it is too early (is it, really? :P) to be taking decisions like that. There are many factors that are not present right now but which are bound to affect those decisions later. Anyhow, what I think at this moment is that I’d still wish to work. It is not because of the money. It is just part of who I am. My work is like some sort of justification of my skills. It shows what I can do, what I can achieve on a personal level. How do I give that up?
Still, deep inside, I want to be a traditional mother. I think it is so beautiful what they do. My own mother is like that. And somehow I wish I could be like her. *sigh* And specially, I so want not to ever say I don’t have time to do something for or with my family.
Well I guess I am right saying it is *too* early to take a final decision about the matter. But I can’t help but wonder. [I so don’t have a fixed picture of where I want to be in some years.] I have yet to think about marriage. Which I really can’t. Can I skip that part? *-*
Anyway, I just hope that along the way to having and building my own little family [ow, that sounds cute!], I’ll find a way to reconcile the modern and the traditional women in me and enjoying the best of both worlds. 🙂